Weird…For Liking the Rain

My last post (been a little while) was about the rain and how I loved it as a kid. And even how I love it now.

Right after I saw that my friend Bethany commented on it, I didn’t read it because I wanted to clean up the kitchen from my breakfast and come back and read it then. Kind of wanted to savor it I guess. I don’t get many comments (not whining) so when I do it’s nice to have something to look forward to reading.

If that’s weird, so be it.

While I was in the kitchen cleaning up I started to think about what I’d written in the post about the rain and I thought about how my mother thinks/thought I was weird for loving the rain.  We’d be talking on the phone on a rainy day once in a while and she’d make a comment about how it was miserable out and I’d say, “I love it.”

She’d say, “I know you do.” And then tell me I’m weird for liking the rain.

I never took it as an insult. Never. I used to laugh and think that I’m actually special and different for liking the rain.

But today, I’m in a mood. I’m so irritable. So thinking of her saying that to me, I’m thinking I might say something more along the lines of, “I’m weird? For liking the water that falls out of the sky? For liking something mother nature is supposed to do naturally? I’m weird for liking something that helps our food grow? Do you know that when it doesn’t rain for a long time we have droughts and the plants die? If we had no water, the animals would die. The humans would all die. If that’s weird then fuck it. I guess I’m weird…not to mention proud to be weird for that.”

 

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4 thoughts on “Weird…For Liking the Rain

  1. It amazes me how alike these narcissistic mothers are.

    We’re having a rainy day here in New Mexico as well, and I love it! I almost want to go outside and dance in the rain. We have been in such a severe drought for so long, that the threat of wildfires was making me sick with worry. I read a heart breaking news story a few days ago about dozens of wild horses dying of dehydration. How many other wild animals have we lost in this drought? Yes, we need this rain!

    Hating the rain — now THAT’S weird. Always looking for ways to find fault with your own daughter — even weirder.

    When I lived in England in the 1970s, I felt so at home there. Probably part of the reason was because it rained a lot while I was there. 😀

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  2. Thank you. And as much as she loves animals, it really is weird. I’m so sick of being related to these people. I’m feeling so bitter today.

    I think I would like Washington state for the rain there.

    So glad you got some rain. That’s awful that wild horses died because of the drought. And wildfires are really serious out in that part of the country from what I understand.

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  3. Interestingly, we had the wildhorses get sick from almost starvation because it rained so much that the prairie was flooded for years. So last year a man that borders the prairie openened his gates for tthe wild horses to graze on his hundreds of non flooded fields and he saved them.
    Our ecosystem is so fragile isn’t it. Too much rain, too little rain.
    On your mom though. She f’ing sucks! You ARE special! Not weird. My mom was like that too in loving animals but you know what. Isn’t really about what they like or don’t like. It’s how shitty they made us feel for being us. If you hated the rain she would have said you were stupid for hating it I have a feeling. Just a feeling.
    Next time it rains, which is tomorrow. I’m standing out in it just for you!

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  4. That last line made me cry. Happy tears, fragile tears, gratitude tears. It made me smile and laugh to. Not a laugh that is making fun, but a laugh that’s more like I’m smiling out loud. 🙂

    I have to agree with you that my mom sucks. This> “Isn’t really about what they like or don’t like. It’s how shitty they made us feel for being us.” Exactly.

    You had commented something similar in the past and that really woke me up to the cognitive dissonance that the mixed feelings creates. And thinking about how kind she was/is to animals. When she still lived in the area she was doing CnR for feral cats. Paying for them too. I am very much an advocate for that so in thinking about that it was one of the things that created the cog dis. One of your comments made me realize it wasn’t about that. It still gets me though.

    And yeah, there was a time when I would’ve say nah, when you say ‘She probably tell you that you are weird if you hate the rain.’ But not anymore.

    I have been surrounded by psychopaths my entire life. I’m even just realizing that now believe it or not. Just an hour ago I would not have labeled all of the ones I’m thinking of in that way, but I would now.

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